My life.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

I'm soo delighted the this week is over! :) I just think that the week went by so fast because of so many things I had to do. Every other day since Monday, I've had to close at least 70+++ memos because of so many calls we're getting everyday. I also had to submit my application for the car loan as well as verify the details on how I should go about with it. This is definitely another hectic week for me. Grrr.
Still, I'm thankful for a lot of things. :) I'm glad to have spent time with my familylast night. I mean, with my whole family. You know the complete package with thecousins, titos and titas. It was my Lola Saling's death anniversary and we had a littleget together. Then one of my friends invited me to this poem reading. Wow! I get to read1 contemporary and 1 poem I composed. I'm actually quite excited about that because that wouldbe like a first for me. Haha! :) Also, last Tuesday, I was able to watch an episode of Smallville. It was great! Superb! One of the best episodes of season 4 so far.
Waah. I'm just so glad that I have great friends in the office. :) They keep me sane and grounded. Special mention to Crissy, Monchy, Mimi and Mel. Thanks for helping me overcome my kerfuffles in this office. I love you guys! :)

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Yesterday I had my usual Monday Morning Blues again. I came inthe office and I was so lethargic. I was so sleepy and a little bit grumpy. I think I nearly ran out of breath because of the 10,000,000 calls we had. Grrr. Also, I felt somewhat pressured yesterday because my brother asked me to request for a car loansince he sold our car so we could buy a bigger one. I felt the sudden burden of that loan. :( I was hoping for a housingloan next year because we're just renting and by next year I'meligible for that already. Oh well, I guess the car has to come first. I finally got over it after my log. I guess I wasn't expecting that. Well, nothing beats the blues but good food and good conversation with your friends like Monchy and Crissy. :) I capped off the night by ordering that huge chili dog at Mexicali.Wow! Superb! More than anything, I'm thankful I was able to survive the blues. I'm still holding on to that good feeling Ihave inside and I know that will get through any rough day. :)

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Lately, I've been feeling okay. I've been feeling great! :) I noticed that I've mellowed down these past few weeks. Imean, with regard to my temper especially when I'm in theoffice. Hehe :) Usually, i easily get irritated when I'm talking to a client. I've noticed recently that my patiencehas improved and I'm proud of it. I'm also happy because inmy more than two years here with Citiphone I finally got acompliment from one of our clients. Yahoo! Lunchbox! :) Haha! That's what they usually give us when we earn compliments. Anyway, I don't know where or what is the reason I'm feeling this but I'm grateful. I just hope that it will go on. Maybe it's because of a person butI just don't want to admit it. Who knows? Boo. :)

[ 11:33 PM ] [ ]

Monday, August 15, 2005

DC Talk

Consume Me
DC TALK

Lovely traces I can sense You in everything
The way that You move me Takes me far away
I seek no escape I'm dreaming through Your eyes
I am wandering through Your mind I'm overtaken
by the way that You deliver me I'm transcended
There's no place I'd rather be Than here in Heaven
Without You I'm incomplete It's hopeless

CHORUS:
You consume me, You consume me
Like a burning flame running through my veins
You consume me moving through me Anytime,
anyplace You invade my space You consume me,
You consume me

Wholly devoted I immerse myself in You Baptize
me in Your love Cause drowning in the thought of
You Floods my soul I'm taken by the things You do God,
You know It doesn't matter what I lose I'm Yours
I am in Your hands Under Your command Like a
puppet on a string [Lord you know] I am willing to
Put my faith in You So before the world I sing [Consume me]
You consume me, You consume me Burning flame,
through my veins You consume me moving through me
Anytime, anyplace You invade my space
You consume me [oh, you know that I surrender]
I am consumed, I'm consumed with You
There's no other way I can fly It's You and I, You and
I There's no other way I can fly It's You and I, You and I

For the past 2 weeks or so, I've been listening to one album. Actually, since high school I've grown to love the band. Their name is DC Talk. I don't mean to be holy or anything but it's a christian band. They've been active in the music industry for quite sometime already. I bought a copy of their greatest hits album and I loved it! =) Every morning, while I'm fixing myself up for work, I listen to it. I don't know if it's psychological or anything but It makes me feel good. I feel somehow inspired when I listen to it. What's good about their music is that they're a christianband but the lyrics... not cheesy at all. Feel good music. =) I heard they're out with a new album and their new song "Godsent" is nice. I'm thinking of getting a copy of it. I have to buy in one of the stores selling praise materials because it's cheaper. Hehe. =)

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Tuesday, August 09, 2005

I met up with a close friend of mine last night. She told me she was having this "love problem." Well, whatever that means. :) So, we had dinner and she told me the scenario. It was a classic case of karma. She had a boyfriend which she sort of took for granted when they were still together and when the guy was trying to get back with her, she said no. Nada. Never again. After a few months, she realized she really loves the guy. Now she's the one who's trying to get back with him but he said no. Nada. I can't blame him. It is quite scary. Now she's sad of course with regret written on her face. It hit me because I'm so afraid to be in that same scenario. I can't ever imagine myself feeling that way. I think I'd rather die. ;P Sometimes I'm scared that GOD might punish me and put me in that situation. Yikes. Why? Well, sometimes I think I'm selfish and I have so much pride in me that I tend to not care at all when I'm in a relationship. It's like I have this protective sheild because maybe I don't want to get hurt. I'm not so sure but when it comes to my family and friends, I can safely say that I can risk everything for them. I mean I will do anything for them because I want them to be happy but when it comes to more intimate relationships I tend to hold back. Someone once told me that when you get to love someone, you should love until the tip of your fingertips. You know, anything less than mediocre love is not love at all. I don't know why but somehow I can't apply this. I mean I'm actually aware that there's a possibility for me to not be married and have kids. Sheesh. My friend even told me maybe it's because I haven't met "the one". Maybe. Maybe not.

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