My life.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Bright Lights

The truth finally dawned on me.

This morning I realized something when I entered the office. For the past few months, I keep telling myself that this is NOT a big thing. It's something that will pass and I'll easily forget it in time but obviously I was wrong. It is something BIG. It might even be bigger than me and I'm just scared that time will come when I won't be able to handle it anymore. :(

I guess I was overwhelmed with the bright lights that I didn't see what is beyond those lights. I sort of underestimated the would be consequences. I took things for granted.

Am I doomed? I hope not. :(

[ 4:29 AM ] [ ]

Friday, September 09, 2005

Couch Potato

Before lunch today, I just watched "Hide and Seek" on dvd. I realized that I miss being like that. I mean, just sitting at home and watching television for like... 2 or more hours. Hehe. :) With all the pressure I've feeling since the start of September, I felt like I'm missing the most important things in my life. Lately, I go home a bit late already. Then when I get home, I just eat and then go to sleep. That's it. Sometimes I forget to even do small talk with my folks or take a look at my nephew. It's kinda sad when I think about it because they always say that kids grow up fast. Last night, I was able to watch Pinoy Big Brother before I went to sleep. I hate to admit but I was actually entertained. :) I had fun watching and bashing the people there. I suddenly felt relaxed and relieved.
I'm also looking forward to tomorrow because my friend and I are planning to watch a basketball game. It's one of those big games in UAAP. I just want to have fun. I just want to escape(?) even for just a while from all the pressure I've been feeling lately.
I remember the other night, the pressure made me cry. I hated myself because I'm not supposed to cry over that. Damn. That's not me. I know I'm stronger than that. I think it's a pride thing.
Well, I guess it's true what they say. The television is a form of escape the reality of this harsh world we live in. If that's the case, I think they owe Samsung or Sony a monument somewhere. :)

[ 10:46 PM ] [ ]

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Breakfast at Tiffany's

Haha! What can I say? Bacon, eggs and toasted bread with butter never tasted so good in the morning. Well, especially this hazy Friday morning. That's it. :)

Kudos goes out to C.M.! Thanks man! :)

[ 10:12 PM ] [ ]

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Red Eye

I was able to watch this movie last night with my friends. We watched Wes Craven's "Red Eye" starring Rachel Mc Adams and Cillian Murphy(possible look alike of Fanny Serrano?!). I actually had doubts before watching it. I thought it will be a disturbing movie based on the trailer. My friend even thought that the guy would turn into a monster or something. Hehe. :) Apparently, it was a suspense thriller and the film was so short! It lasted for 1 hour and 15 minutes only but the plot was amazing. It was suspense to the max! Knowing Wes Craven, his films will leave you hanging at the edge of your seat. I guess I was in awe the whole time I was watching it. Then I felt the stress after. I guess that was adrenaline rush. :) The main thing I learned about the movie is not everything is beyond your control. You can always do something to get out of a situation. You can't let something or someone control you. You have to make your own destiny. :)

[ 7:40 PM ] [ ]

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Patty Overboard

I believe I was in that emotional roller coaster ride last week. I was so scared I wouldn't be able to get off the ride. I started out the week somewhat sad. I mean, maybe a bit lethargic and frustrated. I kept thinking of the sales goal we had to meet for the month of September since we're only like 6 or 7 in our team?! Now I'm feeling the pressure! I have to sell at least P 900,000 worth of volume. Hah! :) Then middle of the week, I felt delighted and happy already. I felt relieved. I really don't know why but I guess I was looking forward to the weekend, my gimmick with my cousins, and yes... that person again. Hehe. :) I suddenly realized that it's not that okay to be happy all the time. There should be a balance also.Why? Well, if you're always happy. As in everyday happy and hyper and then something bad happens, I guess you'll have quite a hard time getting through. I mean, there is a chance that you won't be able to handle it very well. I don't know if it's true. What others say that a happy disposition in life will get you through anything and everything but we live in real world. You know what I mean. :)

[ 8:02 PM ] [ ]