My life.

Monday, October 31, 2005

Earth To Patty

Last night, I had dinner with my whole family to commemorate the birthday celebrants for the months of October and November. Also, my nephews participated in the trick or treat held in the village where my Tita Lou lives. Well, we all love to eat and laugh hard. So, that's what we did last night. :)

Although there was more to that dinner and I didn't quite expect it.

My Tito Boy sponsored one of the delegates in the recent Miss Earth beauty pageant. Her name is Emma Corten and she's Miss UK. She's only 18 years old. I must say I was quite starstruck when I first saw her with her boyfriend, Alvin. By the way, he' s this cute brit guy. :) They're both so tall but it's delighting to know that they're both very nice. They seem grounded. My cousin and I even took a picture with them and they were very accomodating.

Well, my Tito Boy told me that they'll be leaving for UK today. I just have to say that I'm very glad to have met them. Who knows? Maybe someday I'll get to see them again. :)

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Baguio Girl

I can't wait to take my two week vacation leave this November. I just feel so tired and fed up with all the bull I've been through lately.

I remember last year during my two week VL, my friend and I went to Baguio for a vacation. We had so much fun! :) I guess I left all the stress in Manila and I'm doing it again with another friend. I can't wait! We'll just go backpacking for two days! Wah!

Since last year, I sort of made a vow that I'll visit Baguio at least once a year. I just love the place! :) I mean, the weather and everything! The food is great! Wow! A lot of ukay-ukay of course. Hehe. I was thinking when I grow old and retire, I want to buy a small house in Baguio. I've always felt a certain sense of peace in that place. I guess we need that once in a while.

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

So I walk upon high
And I step to the edge
To see my world below
And I laugh at myself
As the tears roll down
Is the world I know?
Where's the world I know?
- The World I Know, Collective Soul

I just found out something I've been dreading to find out these past few weeks. A lot of times I reminded myself that I should be ready for this. Knowing me, I mean the selfish me, I always tell myself that I can take it. I'll breeze through it. I guess I was wrong. Well, I haven't been taking it very well.

I know it's all my fault. I mean, I inflicted this on myself. I took the risk without realizing the consequences and it's quite bad. I can be impulsive at times. Most of the time I tell myself that I won't get hurt. Maybe I just say that to convince myself.

[ 1:05 AM ] [ ]

Friday, October 21, 2005

Almost Over

I cannot believe that the year is almost over! I just realized that after 2 months, it will be 2006 already. :)

When I look back at the things that happened to me this year, I know that I also experienced a lot of setbacks and frustrations. I'm just so glad that I was able to breeze through all of it. I must say that I was able to handle them. Although at times, the setbacks made me cry. Hah! Did I just admit that?! :) Anyway, I know that the "tears" helped me overcome the frustrations.

There were a lot of changes also. I had to handle "bigger" responsibilities at home and at work. I'm also thankful for that because I felt that it helped me grow as a person. I definitely learned how to handle changes. I admit before I'm not so good with changes. I was this "routine" person. Hehe.

Oh well, I'm still thankful that God added another to my life. :) I'm able to enjoy a lot of things now especially when it comes to my family and friends. I'm looking forward to next year.

[ 5:55 AM ] [ ]

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Tainted

I feel sad. Somewhat brokenhearted. Well, it's not because of a particular person but maybe. I don't know.

It's sort of frustrating to realize that you've looked up to something for the last few years of your life only to find out that in the end that something will let you down. Well, in some way. It's like you've worked hard for it but it's quite painful to see that things have changed for the worst. All the hardwork and the sacrifices have all gone to waste. I think.

I suddenly realized that I'm tired. Let me rephrase that...I'm exhausted. Maybe I need a break or maybe it's time to move on and leave this place.

[ 1:56 AM ] [ ]

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

ANALYZE ME

Look at me
What do you see?
A face that looks free?

After a while
You'll see me smile
You see, that's my style

I try to hide what I feel
To make it look real
But inside, my wounds have to heal

What can I do?
This is what I go through
Although at times, it's not true

[ 4:45 PM ] [ ]

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

10 Things I want To Do Before I Die:

1. Visit the wild in Africa.

2. Buy a 4-5 bedroom house.

3. Buy my own car. Preferably an SUV. :)

4. Purchase an expensive painting.

5. Watch a formula one race in Monaco or Malaysia. :)

6. Conduct a home for the aged outreach program.

7. Publish my book of poems.

8. Donate money to the church.

9. Visit my best friend Aliza in the U.S. and stay with her for 1 month or so. :)

10. Learn the art of film editing.

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