Tainted
I feel sad. Somewhat brokenhearted. Well, it's not because of a particular person but maybe. I don't know.
It's sort of frustrating to realize that you've looked up to something for the last few years of your life only to find out that in the end that something will let you down. Well, in some way. It's like you've worked hard for it but it's quite painful to see that things have changed for the worst. All the hardwork and the sacrifices have all gone to waste. I think.
I suddenly realized that I'm tired. Let me rephrase that...I'm exhausted. Maybe I need a break or maybe it's time to move on and leave this place.