My life.

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

Define Redemption

What more can I say? It's November 1 and I lost my less than one year dual sim phone at the cemetery. Sigh.
The good news is... the watch my dad gave me showed up out of nowhere. I have been looking for that watch for a couple of months already. I actually gave up hope that I'll be able to see it again. I remember feeling hurt and upset when I realized I misplaced it. It meant a lot to me because my dad has been using it for more than 20 years already. Oh well. I am still grateful it showed up and I can use it again. As for my phone, it's replaceable. ;)

Labels: Redemption

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Thursday, May 03, 2007

In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire,
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes
- Signal Fire, Snow Patrol

I don't know if this is a hangover from watching Spiderman 3 but I've been hearing this song for the past few days and I love it! :) I think the lyrics are poetic in such a way that it somehow mirrors what I feel right now. Wah.

Labels: Emo

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Friday, April 06, 2007

Past Future Tense

I was 27 when my dad died.

I guess this is what I'll be saying for the next few years of my life. It happened last March 7, 2007. I was at work when I got a missed call from my brother. When I spoke to him, he told me that my dad collapsed and he was rushed to the hospital. So, I got permission from my team leader that there's an emergency at home. I rushed to the hospital but traffic was really bad in Katipunan and I really hated that. It was such an awful feeling inside the cab. When I got to the hospital, it was too late.

The amazing thing about it was that for a moment I think I was stoic. Like the usual dry and unemotional me. I guess I felt like that because I didn't know how to handle grief. I cried when I saw my dad lifeless. I felt pain. I just didn't know how to handle it. It was all surreal to me.

A few days ago, I dreamed of my dad. He looked so radiant and he was dressed in white. He didn't say anything. He just smiled at me. Monchy told me that maybe it was his way of saying that he's really happy now and he'll always be there for us. :)

Labels: Peaceful

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Friday, February 09, 2007

A Good Year

I'm crossing my fingers that 2007 wil be so much better than 2006 for me. So far, everything has been good for me. I was given the chance to finally transfer to another team which handles a certain unit of the bank. I learned a lot of new stuff and I have this opportunity to try something new.
Also, by the middle of this year my family and I will be transferring to our own house. Yeah! :) I'm really excited about that. It will definitely be a change of environment for me as well as for my family. Well, the place is quite far but I know we'll be okay. It will be good for us.
I'm also thrilled by the fact that two of my close friends will be getting married this year. Yeah! :) The funny thing about it is their weddings are one week apart. Wah. It's okay. I'm really excited about that. I'm happy for them. :)
Whatever it is... I feel that there will be a lot "firsts" for me this year. A lot of opportunites. Hopefully, it will all be for the best. :)

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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Baby Steps

I guess I'm at this point in my life wherein slowly but surely I'm opening myself to changes with regard to things around me. I have decided to finally move on next year. Hoping that I'll be in a totally different environment and I'll feel a lot more fulfilled. I told myself before that it will not be easy. That's why I'm preparing myself as early as now.

During my leave, I'm glad I was able to do a couple of things in line with this. I fixed my resume. Then when just last week, I requested the closure of one of my credit cards. Hehe. :) What will I do next? Honestly, I'm still thinking about it. I'm just going with the flow. I'm trying to read the signs... well, if there are any. Hehe. :)
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Monch and I have been hooked lately with watching PDA. I guess it's been a habit that everytime we watch the show, we get into this text marathon mode. Haha! :) Sometimes we just fall asleep texting each other. Wah. We're rooting for this girl. Her name is Irish and she's a Fil-American. Aside from the talent, we both agree that she's one hot chick! Haha! :) We're hoping that she'll be in the top six. Yeah go hotttie!

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Friday, November 03, 2006

Freedom

Ahh... freedom for two weeks. Starting Monday, I will be on my two week mandatory leave. Finally! My last leave was April. I'm really really tired. I need a break.

I'll be leaving on Monday for Baguio. Yipee! I think I've mentioned before that I have this once a year thing with the place. I really have the to be there at least once a year. I cant't wait! :) Although I feel somewhat frustrated whenever I leave the place. I feel like staying there much longer than three days. Oh well.

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About a week ago, I guess I had this mini breakdown at home. After praying, the tears came. Oh yes. I hate to admit it but I did cry. I guess I can only take so much. I just realized in that particular moment, the only person I could turn to was Him.

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

"When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part..."
- John Mayer, "Dreaming With A Broken Heart."

I just realized that I have a broken heart these past few days. Not because of a guy or anything but because of something I've believed in for the past three years. It's quite hard when you hope and believe in something and in the end, they end up hurting you. The pain is excruciating and the frustration is unacceptable. Yet I can't do anyting but accept it. Although I've asked myself a lot of times why the tears are not visible. Then I realized that maybe just maybe I'm crying inside. I guess it's even more painful because I've been trying so hard to cover up what I really feel.

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